We are getting closer each moment to our move.
I’m a little shocked, really, that we’ve been able to accomplish what we have in the last few days. We are waiting for reinforcements for the super big/heavy stuff (refrigerator, washer/dryer) and the last-minute stuff (crib, b’s dresser, tv), but we have been able to tackle about 80% of the stuff on our own.
Moving while dealing with a two-year old is difficult. She doesn’t like her stuff being moved, and her schedule is off for sleep and naps. We’ve listened to a lot more whining and tantrums than usual. I won’t lie to you – I feel a little mommy guilt. I hate that it seems like so much upheaval for her. It’s a lot for us – and we chose it! (For the most part.) I know this is just for another few weeks/months, but I want to handle it as smoothly as possible.
Kids are resilient. I know that, but having that knowledge doesn’t diminish my guilt over the situation.
Sometimes at the most random times, the situation just hits me. Parts of me wish that we hated this town so the leaving would be easier, but it’s not true. We found healing here. We made friends, spent time with family, and found a church we could be a part of without wondering if they were real or not. Bluebelle learned to walk in this house. We watched her go from being a baby to being a full fledged toddler.
Every moment has been sweet. Not easy, but sweet.
I know that we are supposed to be in Fort Worth. We’ve had confirmations that this is the next step for us. For example: we used up a lot of our savings during this crazy time. We had to pay for COBRA insurance (if you’ve ever seen the cost of COBRA, you know you just cringed a little), I had surgery and a hospital stay, we’ve had to travel a lot (although we enjoyed it). Well guess what? We got our moving costs unexpectedly offset! Also, our insurance will start THE DAY he starts working (no more COBRA)! We get 6 weeks to try to find a great place! These are all amazing things that we didn’t expect.
Our backs ache and we are a little sore. We are not getting a lot of sleep (thanks to a certain kid) and I am having to wake by 6 am right now (again thanks to B), but I am soaking in every moment of gratitude while I can. We are so thankful.
Okay, I’ve postponed packing long enough! We’re on our 12+ meltdown (no joke) of the day already and she needs my attention for a few minutes. (I think someone else isn’t getting enough sleep either!)
Yikes.
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